Doing some cleansing…

Hi. I am O+. I eat a large romaine salad every day and I put tuna in it and
usually a roma tomato and some carrots. Once or twice a week I crumble feta
cheese in it. I keep sweet potatoes cooked all the time and have those daily. I
eat cooked spinach (I don’t like it raw) and French green beans and broccoli. I
tried turnips and discovered that I don’t like them (bleckth). I did buy some
parsnips, collard green and kale to try but I haven’t cooked those yet. For
daily fruit, I eat a banana and pineapple juice. Some days I make a smoothie
with Trader Joe’s frozen mango and pineapple chunks with blueberries and/or a
banana and seltzer and ice. I have one egg a day ( I used to have 2 but want
6…lol) and I eat homemade spelt bread or some brown rice a day. I don’t use a
lot of seasoning but I cook my rice in chicken broth. Bland is no big deal to me
but my family likes flavor so I am working on buying some spices. I will eat a
chicken breast and some type of beef. That is a normal day for me. **Warning:
personal, girly stuff ahead** I have noticed that the week before my “cycle”, I
crave protein….lots of protein. That is usually when I will eat more eggs.

That goes away though as soon as I start. (Did I just type that?!?!? Eeeesh…)
**Girly stuff over**
Being a hairstylist who is booked solid 6 weeks in advance makes it hard to do
the meal thing during work days. Since I only work part-time ,18-24 hours a
week, there is no “booking out for lunch”. I graze those days. My customers have
gotten used to me eating between the front desk and my station!! Dr. D’s “chew
your food” and “don’t talk with your mouth full” fly right out the window!!
I feel as if I am doing the right thing with the exception of the protein
thing…and…**sigh**…I have a slight problem. I have a fear/phobia of
exercise. Every time I type that I think “what a stupid thing to be afraid of”
but I can’t help it. I guess it is like someone being afraid of spiders or water
or bridges, etc…mine is exercise. There have been times in my life where I
have gotten over the fear and I work out faithfully 4-5 times per week. My body
loves it and I can lose 30-40 pounds in 3 months just by walking on a treadmill
alone. My body loves exercise and results are swift…but my brain does not. And
all it takes is for me to have an anxiety attack during a workout to make me not
want to do it again. I quit Kung Fu a few months ago because I kept having panic
attacks during class and I couldn’t concentrate so I quit…and I LOVE Kung Fu.
I have signed back up and I start next week so I am just going to have to
hyperventilate through it and get tough. It’s weird to love something and dread
it all at the same time. I put those headphones on and get on my treadmill and I
can go for days and I feel so good afterwards…but then the fear creeps in and
I can’t even get near it. The last time I worked out for any length of time was
6 years ago. I was dating a man who bought me a one year membership to a club
and I felt obligated to go. I never told him of my fear and I just went and
walked on the treadmill. In the first 4 weeks, I went from 28.3% body fat to
21.7% (which stunned the staff) and I lost 10 pounds. By 12 weeks I had lost 36
pounds and I was at 17% body fat and I looked the best I ever have in my
life…just by walking on a treadmill. I kept that up for a year and then the
membership was over and I was starting over in life, single with a son, so I had
no money to continue so I quit. I have worked out for 1 or 2 months off and on
since then and have been in Kung Fu once a week for 1-1/2 years and that is at
least 2 hours of intense work out. I guess I justified not working out by
thinking that I am getting 3 days of work out in one day! HA!! Of course I beat
myself up regularly for quitting because all the weight came back on plus about
15 pounds (22 of which I lost doing ER4YT) but I am still too heavy. So as I
sit, it looks like nothing but work to me and I hate that I put myself back in
this position. But…I am going to try focusing less on the fear and focus on
what I want and see if that works.
Phew, and now do I dare blast this off into ER4YT-ville? Awww…what the hell. I
have nothing to lose and I feel cleansed somehow. For those of you who have read
through this whole thing…thanks.
Coryn

5 Responses to “Doing some cleansing…”

  1. jacobs100 Says:

    In a message dated 1/2/2004 3:45:31 AM Eastern Standard Time,
    SnipSnip@… writes:
    Gee, I wish I did. I just go around feeling guilty all the time.

  2. Rigoberto Kati Says:

    you could also try kohlrabi, they are milder..
    Emmi

  3. Meghan Geralyn Says:

    I’ll keep looking for it. I haven’t seen it in this area.
    Sarah

  4. claudia800 Says:

    Emmi, How do you cook your kohlrabi?
    Linda

  5. jacobs100 Says:

    In a message dated 1/5/2004 1:10:19 PM Eastern Standard Time,
    deaval@… writes:
    The only similar problem I’ve had is going from hot to cold or cold to hot.
    As in going hunting in the winter and then coming inside a hot house to warm
    up or going from a hot summer day to a heavily air conditioned place or a walk
    in freezer. My abdomen, legs, and arms would welt up and itch like crazy for
    a while. The fatter I was the worse it was so I figured it was a blood supply
    problem. You may want to warm or cool more slowly if possible. That’s what
    helped me. I’ve found that gyms are by and large too cold in the summer and
    too warm in the winter probably because the temperature is regulated by
    non-exercising people with all of their clothes on. Try getting acclimated to
    the
    place before doing that heavy lifting. Glistening girls are sexy even if they
    are scratching.
    Max

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